game, money are pleasant components of the winner. INозможно, когда-нибудь это её и погубит. When I met her, and she was 20 years older, my knees trembled, my heart went to my heels, my head was spinning, my hands were shaking. She said that I amazing guy, and I was ready to fulfill her every desire. INот такой королевой она предстала в моих глазах! Of course, the woman had extensive experience in such areas of investment and saw me as another toy from which you can shake out not only money and knowledge, but also energy and health.

And as we frolicked in conversations that focused on nature and relationships, I felt that through every word a desire for money shone through, and I realized that I did not have enough of them to satisfy this woman's need for high cultural communication. So, if you dream of getting not just a woman, but a gorgeous woman, then don't forget about the gorgeous earnings! While I was inspired by her figure and beauty, that I forgot about her age, time difference and time zones, I was ready to follow her to the ends of the world, thinking about the stock exchange, that I would have enough money to buy a plane ticket and follow her anywhere!

I lost my sense of reality, tact, forgot about everything, I fell in love, all because I was a dreamer and a romantic. She followed my every step with a promising look, whispered kind words in my ear, and sparkled with her eyes. And I, like a patient, followed her, but as soon as I clung to her, I was refused, because she was interested in money that was not in my pockets. She reluctantly scribbled her mail on a notepad, because there was no hope for more. I kissed this piece of paper because I believed in a dream, and now it was my dream.

After a while, I re-entered the options to win in her honor. I wanted to be with her and win for her, but I missed the fact that options have their own politics and practice of playing for which the "fool" pays three times! Never go where you don't understand anything. IN первые три дня слился весь счёт, потому что я снова замечтался. So far, I made the first, second bet, on the third I made a mistake, because after the first two, I considered myself a successful God! Because I easily got the first $30 in 2 minutes. And I figured, if I do this again, then in a day I can get two, three times more, and then I can get on a plane and be next to that mature, smart, successful woman.

INсё вышеописанное, оказалось, проявлением зависимости, аддикции, нежизнеспособности. No one can help you but yourself. If you cling to some obsolete connections, to people who see you only as money and pleasure, you will never find yourself and my happiness, so I decided to try another trick: borrow money from the manager. Since my mind was hooked by his self-confidence, I wanted to recognize his weaknesses and evoke emotions. It worked with emotions, but not with money. I went the other way, writing a lovely letter and asking for a small loan. It seems that he puzzled for a long time what to answer, and after a couple of days he wrote:

“Thanks for the kind words, but I don’t lend money to strangers and I don’t advise you to gamble.” What did he do right and the trick failed. He confirmed his strength. He confirmed that he is a good manager. I, too, have always believed that it is not worth playing in loans, somehow this is completely unconvincing.

The ruble is getting weaker and weaker
News: "the ruble is getting weaker and weaker against the dollar." I read this on one of the news pages. Another negative news that there is no way to survive further, the dollar prevails, and the citizens of the country keep their money in rubles. Nobody taught them to think and act differently. INот они и расплачиваются за свои ошибки:

- And what will we do? – спросила Lucy.

- What? What? Gotta make money somehow! Only here's how ... - I said upset.

- I earned $100, let's put it aside? suggested a friend.

“And what are we going to do with them?” It's only $100!

- Let's put it in the box that my grandmother gave me as a child.

I laughed out loud. Более наивных девушек ещё не встречал, чем моя Lucy, этим то она мне и нравилась:

“Better buy yourself a dress,” I suggested.

Her eyes sparkled with joy, as if she herself could not guess about it:

- What about savings?

- Treat yourself, then save up!

I knew that the main part of the problems would fall on me, if both of them had already contacted the exchange, then I would have to somehow control it. I must say that I was poorly versed in economics, or rather, in inflation and other subtleties, and therefore I did not calculate the moves well in advance. IN тоже время чувствовал, что для того, чтобы заработать себе на пенсию, необходимо инвестировать в долгосрочные акции. I understood that by my retirement, the country's economy would become completely unpredictable, unless, of course, I live to be 60 years old. Therefore, I began to study where and how best to invest money in order to live to 60 years. The naivety of past generations was simply baffling. The naivety of parents, their childishness and stupidity, which played out on me all my life, made me think even more: is it right that a person lives one day and listens and does what he is told. IN таком случае, он становится легко управляемым объектом.

Why do so many people listen and do what they are told? Why, with the advent of high technology, it has become even more difficult to understand life and principles? Why, now any young person is ready to do dirty or low-paid work for a penny? What does it all look like? There is only one answer - to a society of slaves, a collapsed system, lack of intelligence, health, strength, faith. And all this is our life. If people live like this, it means that they are happy and that is enough for them. It hurt me a lot to realize that I live in the midst of all of the above. The patriotism and faith embedded in the past were shattered, because I knew that I alone could not change anything. Я хотел хотя бы сохранить себя и Lucy, может быть, ей удастся родить нам прелестного малыша, которого я поставлю на ноги самостоятельно. Any person is greatly influenced by information, and the news is full of negativity and parasitism, so I never read them. And I do not advise you. This idle talk can be useful only to those who have no opinion at all:

- I also sometimes read the news, often I see that there is no work in the country. What does it mean? – спросила Lucy. She was eating a red ripe apple that I recently bought.

“That means there is no work,” I said, “no production, no work, no ideology, no physiology, nothing.

How will all these people live?

– Isn't it all the same? Think about yourself, you yourself don’t have a job either,” I said. IN этот момент, она отвернулась и фыркнула себе под нос в негодовании:

"It's sad," the girl said softly.

“It’s sad, but true, and all this happens to us, dear!

Then I remembered that in the morning I placed a deal on the Eurodollar and went to my laptop to see if there was a profit. Let the ruble weaken, I still sit in dollars.

Addiction
Мы с Lucy на пару занялись опционами. True, when they sat down for them, everyone chose a personal investor that he would like in order to create the illusion of independence. She registered with a prestigious firm, I with the most advertised one. These were the most fun and bright days of our life together, we tried to prove to ourselves and to each other that we successful and strong that we will be able to achieve our goals, even in this way. We acted out our past mistakes and views, our dissatisfaction with life, our degradation, our fantasies, we played and played and played like children. When they earned, they immediately withdrawn and bought what we needed, our relations, our development:

“I made $80,” the friend exclaimed and clapped her hands.

“And I’m only 10,” I replied embarrassedly.

Like children in a sandbox, we placed bets and received money while drinking tea, eating sweets and fruits. We loved each other and were one. The exchange helped us maintain a state of stability in relationships and a firework of emotions. Have we developed on it? Yes! First of all, we worked on our own mistakes and worldview through the game and the new rules that the financial structure established. We honed not only the skill of the game, but also an outlook on life and society. We strived for the best, for better living conditions, for beauty, and gradually developed. Our influencers were films by Martin Scorsese, roles from films with Robert De Niro, Sharon Stone, Al Pacino. INсе эти герои являлись лидерами в фильмах и жизни, показывали на своём примере то, каким нужно быть. We grew up on the classics of the United States, on their ideas about a bright, interesting life.

We wanted the same life. Notсмотря на то, что Россия отстаёт по развитию капитализма на 100 лет, мы всё равно стремились к лучшему. But if